Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.
Dear Friends
Well this I guess should be be kept amongst as we are good friends by now, I have after all been writing to you for a number of months. I saw todays prompt and it was like a beacon saying that I should avoid , look away, don’t respond. So
Keep Smiling
Love
Ok I can’t leave it, Tell us about a time when you felt out of place?
All of my childhood from when I can first remember to the the age of well May this year and that makes me 57. A long time to feel you are out of place and don’t belong , a long time to hate yourself and blame yourself for every single thing that happened for the whole family because I felt I was in the wrong place, I didn’t belong. when it wasn’t me, I actually wasn’t wanted as a child .
Then when everything tumbled around me in May and I very nearly became another statistic
I saw that I belonged exactly where I was and all the years I had wasted feeling so bad about me and my life were for nothing. But hopefully I can live in the moment now and see with clarity that unfortunately there was nothing I could have done in this case , it was a series of events that seemed to follow through my life but in a strange way I was attracting them, not intentionally. Just because I was of the mind set I was not good enough, it had put me in a negative downhill spiral.
Now because of circumstances I broke that cycle because I nearly broke myself, life is not perfect but it’s better than it was , I now can safely say I may have been born in 1966 but I was born and I didn’t fit, I was reborn in 2023 and I fit in my life so much better mentally that is. Still waiting for an upgrade on that body, you know the one slim, curvy, no wheelchair, hair that never frizzes, a face that is perfect without make up…….. oops sorry that’s me thinking aloud with my fingers
Bucket of Smiles 