Simply Life

What have you been putting off doing? Why?

I’m here again as you can probably see, and this is part of my putting off doing issue I have.

Because of the amount of things that need to be done at home, reorganising, de cluttering, decorating, literally could do with a Stacey Solomon approach to it. Um, well not that radical but you get the idea. I have issues with mobility and because I cannot do these jobs some on my own, some at all, it affects my mental health to be surrounded by what I class as a mountain, a lifetime of who knows what!! . I have PTSD so this utter chaos affects me negatively. It’s a vicious circle ⭕️ if it was sorted and looked tidy, I could cope and feel happier and then be doing what I truly dearly want to do.

Now I could sit and sort some paperwork out, but I have nowhere to put it till I sort the cubes out and my desk is covered in anything and everything. I look at it and I look the other way, or go to bed because it’s more comfortable so I tell myself.

My one daughter who I add has four young children finds time to come and help when she can , I just keep remembering when I could do everything that needs doing and it would have all got done but then it wouldn’t be in the state it’s in now.

So there is the start of my problem that Leeds me neatly on to …..

I have been putting off Writing and Artwork for fear of success, I have two books half done , a new one I started. Poems in the hundreds all to be sorted some to be typed up. Even writing on my website or on here throws me at times. so by having my house a mess, untidy, I can’t think or concentrate derailing myself time and time again.

This daily prompt I was using as a letter to friends as in my head that’s what readers become, but then I think ooh that’s opinionated of me. DUH Kim this is what it’s about , opinions and thoughts as we are all different, although surprisingly on some subjects it seems a vast majority think the same.

I need to stop procrastinating and find some help, I need two rooms done by Christmas 🎄. This is not a want this is a need

I need to get my head straight and start writing and painting asap …..

I need to start enjoying and embracing this life, what’s done is done so time to stop putting things off….

Keep Smiling My Friends

It’s hard I know, but it makes this world a nicer place

Kim

Every day the clock resets. .

What’s a topic or issue about which you’ve changed your mind?

Dear Friends

Here we are again into the tenth month of 2023 and I can honestly say

1. Every month I have thought No this is the worst month so far for money

2. Every month I have thought No this month I feel older 🤭

3. Every month I have realised more No this month life is so precious

4. Every month I have let another piece of my hurt 😞 drift away

5. So far these last ten months I have lost a lot of anger 😡 sadness ☹️ and some of my negativity

6. This year 2023 I have lost people who said they were my friends. Till I really needed a friend.

7. I have changed my mind about my life and every aspect of it, every corner has and is being dusted out and the me that was is slowly disappearing. I don’t know if she existed, but this new mentally improved model (bodywork is a hunk of junk) seems pretty much ok, not saying perfect as I don’t like perfect but near as I can get it

So Sending Smiles

Across The Miles

Kim

But When Did I Feel I Belonged

Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.

Dear Friends

Well this I guess should be be kept amongst as we are good friends by now, I have after all been writing to you for a number of months. I saw todays prompt and it was like a beacon saying that I should avoid , look away, don’t respond. So

Keep Smiling

Love

Ok I can’t leave it, Tell us about a time when you felt out of place?

All of my childhood from when I can first remember to the the age of well May this year and that makes me 57. A long time to feel you are out of place and don’t belong , a long time to hate yourself and blame yourself for every single thing that happened for the whole family because I felt I was in the wrong place, I didn’t belong. when it wasn’t me, I actually wasn’t wanted as a child .

Then when everything tumbled around me in May and I very nearly became another statistic

I saw that I belonged exactly where I was and all the years I had wasted feeling so bad about me and my life were for nothing. But hopefully I can live in the moment now and see with clarity that unfortunately there was nothing I could have done in this case , it was a series of events that seemed to follow through my life but in a strange way I was attracting them, not intentionally. Just because I was of the mind set I was not good enough, it had put me in a negative downhill spiral.

Now because of circumstances I broke that cycle because I nearly broke myself, life is not perfect but it’s better than it was , I now can safely say I may have been born in 1966 but I was born and I didn’t fit, I was reborn in 2023 and I fit in my life so much better mentally that is. Still waiting for an upgrade on that body, you know the one slim, curvy, no wheelchair, hair that never frizzes, a face that is perfect without make up…….. oops sorry that’s me thinking aloud with my fingers

Man Is The Most Extraordinary Computer of All

Your life without a computer: what does it look like?

My Dearest Friend

Oh life was so much fun before the complexities of the computer. I remember a time when there was no PC 🖥️, laptop 💻 or device with computer abilities that beckoned you, calling with an almost silent humming like a siren to mesmerise one for hours.

A PC 🖥️ was to make life easier yet it has made us slaves to its technology, and our intelligence has changed, research is a flick of the button not books and libraries and actually doing the legwork that used to be done.

There is of course some good from computers as it can bring communities together and people have been able to access online courses cheaper than the distance learning used to be.

But to go back to todays prompt life today without a computer, what does it look like? For me it looks like bliss, I don’t need the social media and without a PC I would probably get more done. In all honesty it’s the internet I would be happier to lose and have a pc 🖥️ for word processing, I also would love to lose the mobile phone or just have a phone not a smartphone because it is addictive and dulls the intellect. I believe we are becoming antisocial, rude and almost hermits bent double over the ruler of our lives technology

Keep Smiling

Speak soon

Kim

Repetition Is The Mother Of All Skills

What skill would you like to learn?

Dear Reader

How exciting it would be, to learn a new skill, but what should it be?

I can bake and cook,

I can sew and mend

Paint and paper and decorate my house! Ok I used too before my wheelchair held me back

I don’t want to do plumbing or be an Electrician.

So what do I want to learn? A language ❌

Knitting ❌

There must be something, then the small voice SCREAMS from the back of my head you need to organise your life your home your mind that is the Skill you need to learn.

How can my brain function when everything is in disarray, bills, shopping, clothes, desk, forgetting to eat. Come on woman learn that skill set .

With that I am now looking for the work book organisation home, life, mind, but I seemed to have misplaced it .

Think I need to look at the skill of minimalist and how to achieve said life. first. Oops

Bye for now

Kim

Trait! What Trait

What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

Dearest Friend(s)

This is the last Saturday in September and here has been chilly with overcast grey clouds a totally dull and dismal day

So back to the prompt ‘what trait do I value most about myself, to be totally honest I don’t know. I have thought about it so much all day and this prompt has me so confused about myself.

So I came to say it’s ok not to be sure what trait you most value it’s ok not to be sure which one is the worst one you have. Because you are an individual and people who know you will be aware of your good points. I expect I could say half a dozen things but this prompt almost had a pompous feel to it

Role up look at Me

Im a Survivor do you see,

Empathic, Loyal, Kind, I Care,

No Competition alls just Fair

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Take care lovelies

Sharing Smiles

Kim

Money, Money Everywhere But What About My Health

List three jobs you’d consider pursuing if money didn’t matter.

My Dearest Friend(s)

One must apologise for one’s absence, I realise no one noticed, but it is indeed good manners to pass on one’s sincerity’s. Hey for one moment I actually sounded rather 19th century posh, how tiresome.

Well back to the prompt of the day, of course money is an issue in most dream jobs, but I am hindered by mobility so for the sake of a fair playing field for one day and one day only Kim is going to be (drum role please) NOT HINDERED BY CRUTCHES OR WHEELCHAIR

1/ I would like to own and run a mega fancy dress shop that hires and sells quality Reasonably priced fun wear for all ages, within that shop their will be a seamstress or two and we will cater for parties , weddings i.e medieval themed occasions. Even tv in the area , stage anything . It would be the party warehouse central. Even throwing it’s own events monthly over the region. Children’s parties 🎉 not a problem our vehicles would be kitted out with everything needed . Good old days of the party bus well there would be a venue of party buses Hows that for job number one

2/ I have always wanted my own crafting workshop set up for ease of access, not even saying I want equipment, I would use what I have and I would like the workshop to have a shop/display front so that I have a place to display my work and part of the studio frontage can be hired by starting artists to give them a step up so the public can see and enjoy and hopefully buy our creations

3/ A book shop combined coffee shop combining two passions in one, my love of books, and coffee with a snack of course. Not so much a new book shop but a second chance book shop, pre loved books waiting to be read again. Actually if someone came in and bought coffee and cake and sat in the comfy chairs with a book that would be ok with me . Because this would be perfect. Let the troubles slip away at Kim’s cozy cafe & book nook. This place would be serving the community in many ways, nothing to do but don’t want to sit alone, come sit and have a hot chocolate in the coffee shop, join the book club well one of them . Kids area with a reader and to be honest what’s better than comfy chairs a coffee and a book. Or keeping warm and having a natter with Maureen and her neighbour Paula. So much you can do for people if you just want help

My three ideal jobs if money and health were not a problem

Keep Smiling My Darlings

Keep Happy

Kim

Always Walk On The Bright Side Of Life

What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever received?

Dear Friends

In the 57 year I have been on this earth I have probably been given much advice, more than I can possibly remember. Some has been very inspirational, some practical. And some, well, definitely not the best but probably the most comical advice, for example and no explanations given look it up or ask a friend if you don’t understand

Remember only chickens produce anything good sat on their backsides (farming background)

Don’t eat yellow snow ⛄️

Don’t back racehorses.

Silence is golden, till you have kids, then it’s, what the heck are they up to now

Now many people will wonder why I have put those in , simply because there will be so many of the normal live laugh love, living wholesome lives, be happy etc all I could think of was the comical things. Those are the ones that have got me through life,

There is nothing amazing that stands out in my mind, the only thing I would pass to anyone else is

Follow your path your dreams, live your life, walk your journey. Don’t let anyone stop you from being YOU.

Keep Smiling

Kim

Here We Go

Which topics would you like to be more informed about?

Dear Friends

In school I was taught to sit up straight,

Face the front, and listen with your ears and mouths to stay shut.

In school I learnt my ABC write the way through to XYZ

I learnt to write, spelling my name, then on to reading loved that it’s plain.

In school I went on to learn the rest History, Sciences, Technical Skills,

Mathematics, Languages, and Cookery at the end we sat exams took tests.

But in my education which was pretty much the norm for late 1970’s UK

I wanted and still do want to learn about LIFE, and how to LIVE a better way

Life should be a lesson that all kids take at 10, 15 and 20 and a top up at 30 if in doubt

I want to know more about how not to hurt so much, how to survive

Include in the lesson budgets and relationships, raising children, working, planning meals, handling emotional issues and mentoring.

So there we have it I would like to learn more about life, oh and AI plus a little more about psychology actually I just want to learn as much as I can while I can

Keep Smiling

Kim

“If music be the food of love, play on.” – William Shakespeare

What would your life be like without music?

Hello My Friends

That for me is a difficult question, although I love music 🎶 I listened mostly when driving, so when my health deteriorated and I could no longer drive, I seemed to stop listening to music so much.

I live in a world of almost silence, I would say 95% of my life is silence 🤐. I don’t like it but it is a coping mechanism for me. On a good day music is on and an out of tune, once alto voice now more a harpy can be heard warbling all the right words. Only they sound wrong because the singers get the lyrics back to front all the time. Amateurs!

Those days are few and far between, not me getting the words right and everyone else singing some other rubbish that happens all the time 😂 but music, radio even tv can stop the sound of silence. Unless you suffer the same way it is difficult to understand.

So for the days when I close my eyes and my mind waltzes me of to Strauss’s, Blue Danube or I’m in the mood for a little,

Come on Eileen by Dexteys Midnight Runners, a little

Miley, or even dad

Billy-Ray,

Bob Marley,

Johnny Cash.

The list could go on for a very long time but that’s not what this is about, for those moments that throw me back to happier times, a world without music 🎼 would turn this dark place in which I live, into a black abyss. Never to have hope of seeing the light again, never to feel the sun on my face. That is what life would be like taking away that final bit of joy left that I have.

Keep the sun shining

Keep the Music 🎶 Playing

Keep your smile’s beaming

Kim