Please don’t think me ignorant nor completely devoid of intelligence when I tell you the college I attended was the College of Life.
When I left school I had a choice find a job or, oh that was my choice. I didn’t have a parent who would see me through college. So I learnt on my own. Like millions of other people before and after me.
Since the wheelchair became a part of my life I have gained many diplomas, and am entitled to carry many letters after my name. Just to prove to myself I could do it.
So my dear reader the college I had to enrol in at 16 served me well. I shall carry the banner with pride.
This day and age with government funding it is more advisable to attend a regular college .
the way in which two or more people or things are connected, or the state of being connected.”the study will assess the relationship between unemployment and political attitudes”
When asked what relationships have had a positive impact on me, I almost passed it by but sometimes a little soul searching is good for us all. Or maybe the word I should use is cathartic.
My stepfather has had the biggest impact on my life relationship wise, now please remember we are talking pop positive vibes only, here they are
1. Stepdad he bought me up,taught me respect and values and bought God into my life. it broke me when he died a year ago.
2. Current Partner has shown me that love is real and will do anything to make me feel safe, he makes the traumas of my past disappear.
3. Carer this lady has been with me 12+ years she is amazing. It is good to have someone who knows me so well, that if needed can anticipate my every move when I’m poorly . As a bonus she has become my best friend as time has passed. Life would be so dull without her
These are the relationships that have defined me in a positive way,
We are so nearly at the of end another year , I wish you a Happy New Year 🥳
I hope you all have a pleasant day and hopefully communicate again
My thoughts on politics and politicians have changed and always for the worse. I’m sure there are some humans with decent souls left amongst those who dabble in the dark arts of POLITICS, but I am doing as my Step father taught me, religion and politics should not be discussed in polite society . I have to add I have never seen a poor politician
Therefore here ends today short message
Stay safe where ever you may be
Thank you for always being so supportive of me and my scribbles
Have you ever performed on stage or given a speech?
I was born to perform, not as an actress, oh no I would never remember my lines, moves or cue. But all the worlds a stage my darlings and every day is a new part, a new start.
Dear Readers
So back to the prompt of the day have I ever performed on eirkllllstage or given a speech? It pleases me to say yes to the first and in a roundabout way yes to the second.
As a teenagera I was involved in amateur dramatics with the YFC and performed in competitions regionally, we reached the semi finals one year and I was so proud of our club. We h me o act and sing and of course dress up, well actually dress down that time as we sang our way through old London Town. We Rolled out the Barrel we had a Barrel of fun and carried on with My Old Man, said follow the van and don’t dilly dally on the way. Our play was a Pearly Kings & Queens London , with the old time music hall songs.
(YFC was the Young farmers club)
Then years later I started reading poetry , my own work to open spiritual evenings .
My proudest moment in the oratory world was being asked by the local DAA to be their show host for an awareness event. introducing the acts, keeping the audience entertained and even having my chance to read my own work . and give a step toward publishing it.
(DAA dementia action alliance)
Yes I have many times stood in front of group of people for many reasons and spoken aloud work and other matters and I enjoyed it .
Little secret I don’t think I needed the microphone 😁
Have a wonderful day, evening or night till we meet again
Kim Louise
Well said
Please remember this was pre 1965 so no remarks about sexism
Yes I have been absent for a while, i do hope absence does not mean you have forgotten me?
Now what is a wild animal exactly? Surely all animals are wild and we humans are under the illusion that we have tamed these poor creatures. Then again humans are pretty wild, and I mean that in many ways, from partying to fighting, one extreme to another.
Here in the UK 🇬🇧 a mouse 🐭 is wild (wildlife) and gets very mad when caught😁.
I live close to a safari park and have visited the park seen the wild!!!! animals but here the native wildlife to name a few are mice, rats, foxes. Badgers, voles and many more we have one poisonous snake an Adder unless some other breed has been introduced. I will be corrected I expect but we are here to learn. All of which I have had the pleasure of meeting in my lifetime
The wildest animal I have ever come across is a cat that was being cuddled by my then 4yr old, the cat 🐈 did not want a cuddle but never struggle with a 4yr old they are the wildest creatures you will meet
Wild mice love to ransack your homeWild child avoid at all costs
Yes I have been absent recently, I have been fighting with an old enemy, myself.
I have enjoyed these little notes I have sent to you, sharing thoughts and ideas and sometimes parts of my life. But out of nowhere the mocking Me returned and for a short time I lost all confidence. I actually allowed this accursed doubt to get the better of me. It is the voice from the past, the voice from childhood, all my insecurities poured in and fear stopped me writing anymore. Why would I when I was useless?
Then I saw todays prompt and a rush of emotion flooded in.
Oh I could be proud of being a survivor of domestic violence, I am but that was a battle that left me battered beyond recognition to the person I was.
My children maybe? Well that’s another letter altogether, I love them with a full heart I may not like them sometimes (they are all adults). What I will say is they should have pride in themselves first, a couple have got themselves grounded, and are sorted in whatever they are doing. So that makes me happy for them.
So what am I most proud of in life?
That I was lucky enough to have had a most wonderful Step-Father who even after my mother left him, divorced him, went off with another man leaving her two daughters and their son with him (lots more to the story) he continued to raise us, care for us and do his ultimate best for us.
He was a farmer 18yrs older than mother, he worked hard provided well for us all. I have seen him cry (saddest day ever, but I learnt real men cry) he made us all laugh, and he learnt to cook, fast, very fast.
The first Sunday we had been he was determined we would have a roast dinner as that was the tradition. Success meat roasted along with potatoes. Then the veg was cooking nicely, and Dad asked how do you we make gravy we looked at one another and shrugged 🤷♀️ in the 1970s on the farm no we didn’t have gravy granules, I don’t know if they existed . So with um helpful suggestions from my sister and myself we had our first and last slice of gravy. It was the best roast ever. He continued to improve his roasts to the point I can honestly say his were the best I can ever remember.
This story I shared was to give an example of the sort of man he was. No such thing as a problem just a wrinkle to iron out.
I am so Proud I was able to have met this man
My heart is even fuller because I was able to call him Dad
I wasn’t there at the end of his days, somethings can’t be helped, but I do know if he had been told the truth about me and why I had to go he would have understood.
So to my Step-Father I am so proud to have been brought up by you, no one compares to you, sorry for not being there towards the end, I never stopped thinking about you, or thanking you for lessons you taught and the love you gave, without you I don’t know where we would of ended up
Now you can walk across the fields, with all your dogs that went ahead of you,
Taking in the peace and enjoying every sunset. Relaxing with old friends sharing laughter like you used to.
I hope you hear the words Dad I was and always will be so very proud of you. x
I’m here again as you can probably see, and this is part of my putting off doing issue I have.
Because of the amount of things that need to be done at home, reorganising, de cluttering, decorating, literally could do with a Stacey Solomon approach to it. Um, well not that radical but you get the idea. I have issues with mobility and because I cannot do these jobs some on my own, some at all, it affects my mental health to be surrounded by what I class as a mountain, a lifetime of who knows what!! . I have PTSD so this utter chaos affects me negatively. It’s a vicious circle ⭕️ if it was sorted and looked tidy, I could cope and feel happier and then be doing what I truly dearly want to do.
Now I could sit and sort some paperwork out, but I have nowhere to put it till I sort the cubes out and my desk is covered in anything and everything. I look at it and I look the other way, or go to bed because it’s more comfortable so I tell myself.
My one daughter who I add has four young children finds time to come and help when she can , I just keep remembering when I could do everything that needs doing and it would have all got done but then it wouldn’t be in the state it’s in now.
So there is the start of my problem that Leeds me neatly on to …..
I have been putting off Writing and Artwork for fear of success, I have two books half done , a new one I started. Poems in the hundreds all to be sorted some to be typed up. Even writing on my website or on here throws me at times. so by having my house a mess, untidy, I can’t think or concentrate derailing myself time and time again.
This daily prompt I was using as a letter to friends as in my head that’s what readers become, but then I think ooh that’s opinionated of me. DUH Kim this is what it’s about , opinions and thoughts as we are all different, although surprisingly on some subjects it seems a vast majority think the same.
I need to stop procrastinating and find some help, I need two rooms done by Christmas 🎄. This is not a want this is a need
I need to get my head straight and start writing and painting asap …..
I need to start enjoying and embracing this life, what’s done is done so time to stop putting things off….
Keep Smiling My Friends
It’s hard I know, but it makes this world a nicer place
What’s a topic or issue about which you’ve changed your mind?
Dear Friends
Here we are again into the tenth month of 2023 and I can honestly say
1. Every month I have thought No this is the worst month so far for money
2. Every month I have thought No this month I feel older 🤭
3. Every month I have realised more No this month life is so precious
4. Every month I have let another piece of my hurt 😞 drift away
5. So far these last ten months I have lost a lot of anger 😡 sadness ☹️ and some of my negativity
6. This year 2023 I have lost people who said they were my friends. Till I really needed a friend.
7. I have changed my mind about my life and every aspect of it, every corner has and is being dusted out and the me that was is slowly disappearing. I don’t know if she existed, but this new mentally improved model (bodywork is a hunk of junk) seems pretty much ok, not saying perfect as I don’t like perfect but near as I can get it
Your life without a computer: what does it look like?
My Dearest Friend
Oh life was so much fun before the complexities of the computer. I remember a time when there was no PC 🖥️, laptop 💻 or device with computer abilities that beckoned you, calling with an almost silent humming like a siren to mesmerise one for hours.
A PC 🖥️ was to make life easier yet it has made us slaves to its technology, and our intelligence has changed, research is a flick of the button not books and libraries and actually doing the legwork that used to be done.
There is of course some good from computers as it can bring communities together and people have been able to access online courses cheaper than the distance learning used to be.
But to go back to todays prompt life today without a computer, what does it look like? For me it looks like bliss, I don’t need the social media and without a PC I would probably get more done. In all honesty it’s the internet I would be happier to lose and have a pc 🖥️ for word processing, I also would love to lose the mobile phone or just have a phone not a smartphone because it is addictive and dulls the intellect. I believe we are becoming antisocial, rude and almost hermits bent double over the ruler of our lives technology
How exciting it would be, to learn a new skill, but what should it be?
I can bake and cook,
I can sew and mend
Paint and paper and decorate my house! Ok I used too before my wheelchair held me back
I don’t want to do plumbing or be an Electrician.
So what do I want to learn? A language ❌
Knitting ❌
There must be something, then the small voice SCREAMS from the back of my head you need to organise your life your home your mind that is the Skill you need to learn.
How can my brain function when everything is in disarray, bills, shopping, clothes, desk, forgetting to eat. Come on woman learn that skill set .
With that I am now looking for the work book organisation home, life, mind, but I seemed to have misplaced it .
Think I need to look at the skill of minimalist and how to achieve said life. first. Oops
Bucket of Smiles 