My Dad

Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.

Hello Friend,

I felt the need to return and tell you about this man who made such a huge positive impact on my life, that sadly no man could compare to him.

My Dad, yes I know it’s easy to say ‘your dad’, please note I said Dad with pride. I did not say father. Any man can father a child in the biological sense (if able to do so medically) not all can be a Dad.

My Dad took my sister and I on when he married my mother, they went on and had a son. Dad was amazing he cared for us all even when mum left after some pretty awful things happened. Not once did he tell her to take her kids or turn on us, he provided a home, clothes, a good life.

Without this wonderful man and his love I wonder where I would be. Life has never been easy like so many of you, at least I can say my childhood and younger adulthood was amazing my children got to know their Grandad at the farm and love him almost as much as I did.

Through the curse of domestic abuse because my girls were scared and my injuries were causing my health to fail the police and social services deemed it right for us to be punished not the bully so we were uprooted from all my girls had ever known, me from friends, family and into a strange new town , by now I could no longer drive so we were stranded. So with being moved 3 times for protection, and not being allowed to contact family because one member was friends with the abuser I never got to see my Dad for the last 15yrs of his life.

I guess I had to grieve for him way before he passed away, because I had already lost him. When he died two years ago I wasn’t told , now that might seem a slightly strange comment, I assure you when people say walls have ears, and don’t trust anyone, believe them.

You may be thinking, well you were moved, no one knew where you were, wrong. my ex had found my address a few years ago but thank goodness the police had given him a warning , plus the children are adults now. Also one of my older children is in contact with a cousin who told her when Grandad, My Dad died, but she was not to tell me. That hurt so deeply. Like all things hidden they have a way of surfacing and so did my Dad’s details, the internet 🛜 keeps us informed of many things and I have always kept up with local news from my home area. When I saw Dads name I was frozen. I never got the chance to see him, but I dam well managed to go back and say my final goodbye

I have never found another man with his morals, integrity, honesty and pure loving kindness. Yes he was a religious man as in church on Sunday but that gave us a code of morals to be guided by. I know my life has been less than perfect and it grieves me but it had nothing to do with the way My Dad brought me up that was down to my poor lack of judgement and no maternal input whatsoever

Sorry for rambling on

Take care and bye for now

A Word Sent Back

What advice would you give to your teenage self?

Dear Friend

Well here we are again, enjoying the last few days of February, waiting to see how March bursts upon us, will it be the proverbial in like a lion 🦁 out like a lamb 🐑 or the other way round (English saying thought to be around 17th C )(I hasten to add there are many claims to saying I just picked on the one below)

Who first said: “March comes in like a lion”?

“March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb” is an English proverb of unknown origin. It is first alluded to in print in A Wife for a Month, written in 1624 by John Fletcher (1579-1625),

Sorry just went a little off topic then, but that’s the kind of message I would send to myself. Ok here goes nudge me if I start to drift a little

Hey Young Me , it’s you older a little wiser and yes a lot bigger. I know, I look like Granny, but is that such a bad thing she was a beautiful soul, well, still is to you, cherish her and the few loved ones we have, plus you will never make her love you so don’t lose sleep or shed tears over that person 🆗. Actually please don’t chase love Ever.

I have to tell you reach out and grasp any learning you can, I know college is unavailable at the moment, but as soon as you have money spare, learn. What about? Everything, anything, take every opportunity you can and be happy don’t allow anyone to dim your light.💡. You are clever, and pretty and those awful things that happened were not your fault. Don’t waste your life looking for love it will find you and don’t let anyone ever hurt you again. Think if I made it without this advice think how high you can fly knowing this.

Allow no one to make you cry in pain or shame you don’t deserve that life. Please take this final advice. With all my heart.

So there you have it my friend the advice sent back to my teenage self, if only it was possible, but we are here to learn . No one ever said life was easy

Keep smiling 😊

Kim-Louise

All the things I wish I had thought of saying, but feel.

Snap, that’s my break finished with

Do you need a break? From what?

Welcome dear Reader

I’m so pleased you are here I was about to tell about needing a break and what from. Come sit a while and let’s chat.

I have been stressed since last week and now I am annoyed 😡 so I have decided that I need a break from the lies and bull sh#t fed to us by authorities and Medical personnel and many more we are supposed to trust. This last seven days I have had lies and been mislead on several subjects that are important and necessary to my well being.

Oh well , no break has appeared just a snap or two. So I live to fight another day, oh and I will fight tooth and nail.

Grrrrrr there’s no need for it is there? Lies I can’t stand and from people we are supposed to trust

Ok my little rant is over we shall contact through our writing another day

Sending smiles

Kim-Louise

Crazy, curious, come in…

Come up with a crazy business idea.

Dear Reader

I was just thinking 🤔 to myself, wow there are so many crazy schemes businesses and make money quickly ideas how can I top it when I thought !! easy people will pay for literally anything these days , yes ?

So my business is strictly legit ok? It’s called CRaF

CHOSE RENT a FRIEND

Originally it would have been person not friend but that would have have been embarrassing as it read CRAP (oops)

The business is all about mental health and how people are spending so much time alone, conversation is almost a dying art. Now some of the senior managers would have counselling skills for different traumas, but a lot of staff would be friendly happy chatty people who just want to make the world a better place .

They obviously would be trained to the CRaF guidelines and then people would be guided to this service.

Obviously cost is a huge factor in everything, so your friend might meet you in a coffee shop or go to town with you. All expenses are covered for your friend and yourself as in coffee and a cake or even an ice cream. There is no cost to the client .

We are a business like anyone else and we run via donations from large corporations that need to have tax cuts. Any profits split 50% into regrowth 50% into parties, tea dances, choirs, Christmas and as many social events as we can because shutting the door on the world won’t help. But a tea dance might, don’t knock it till you try it. Too many things to list. Just please we don’t allow social media so no phones. Old style cameras only

The aim is to grow homes like this everywhere we can. Within 5yrs the business intends to have 20 houses fully staffed with friends who care. Who can start clients back on the road to socialisation, to overcoming whatever is troubling you. A friend in need we have the friend you need.

This business a new beginning an end to the silence, there will be a lot going on

In this crazy business of mine KLN

Red Flag 🚩 Run

What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?

We humans are a funny lot, we talk in riddles, gestures, and rarely say exactly what I’m m

So my top Red Flag 🚩 at the moment has to be the person that won’t talk about themselves at all. No details like where they live, just general area. Or what job not where but just what job. Do you have children avoids the question. 9 times out of 10 that person is probably married, the flag is nearly everyone will say I I live in the …………area. Oh I’m tired from work it’s hectic but I love doing …….. it’s my dream job.

I have been bitten twice by these type of people and all I can say is never again I can actually sense them a lot better now

lol

“ If you ignore the red flags, embrace the heartache to come.”

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I am but one voice

So staring at this blank screen is like staring at my life,

The past once so full and rich has gone, cut off with a knife.

A Metaphor you’re thinking for something I have lost,

No, my dear, I can answer, a knife, a boot, but a fist the most.

I am now invisable, a remnant of myself,

left broken and alone gathering dust upon a shelf.

Domestic Violence is a crime and should be punished I agree,

But with PTSD and left disabled, alone in another town why should it be me?

Bitterness has turned to please Karma where have you gone?

Have you abandoned me also? I have been alone for, oh, so very long.

Or do I not exist, from the time he walked out the door?

I want to be seen, my story told, no longer invisible, it’s time now to be bold.

Take a stand, well a wheelchair for me, Abuse and Violence needs to stop NOW.

I am but one voice lost , my children and I were moved safely somehow.

We are lucky, some are not, I am not complaining , I’m alive.

Its heartbreaking to think of those that don’t survive.

So if you have been affected, or feel the pain in some way

Don’t you think its time we stood together united have our say.

Man or woman it matters not bullying should be no more

Life should be for love and laughter, show hatred out, shut the door.

Kim Louise 2021