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What does your ideal home look like?

Hello my friend,

Some time has passed since we last spoke, for that I am extremely sorry. I have not been in the mood to write, if I am to be honest I am not sure where I have been or what my mind has been doing, it has been on a magical mystery tour without me. Anyway this popped up about my ideal home, well how could I not share this with you!

Firstly I live in two worlds and the one I know the best is inside my head . When writing ✍🏽 it is a retreat for me, and it comes from something said when I was young. Overhearing an adult saying that I had my head in the clouds I started constructing my own castle in the clouds.

This castle has never changed in its design and is to be honest basic except for the book collection which covers 50% of the castle walls with a ladder that encircles all of the bookcases on a track.

I sit on this huge window ledge writing , painting and sewing happy and in peace.If it’s cold there is a roaring fire in a magnificent fireplace , if warm the window is open and I hear birds singing.

It reminds me of certain Disney films and some fairytales but not in cartoon form. All I can say it’s there I go when looking for ideas , peace, escapism.

Here in the real physical, actual world, oh I have a dream don’t we all? To live in the perfect house suitable for my needs that would be a wow.

Here I go firstly a bungalow, but not a small one on a housing estate. I dream of having one that allows my wheelchair to go through the front door, wide spacious entrance hall, with a large living room to display my collectibles. Then a good sized kitchen/dining room that hopefully leads to a nice garden 🪴 patio area. All has to be wheelchair accessible as the time may come when I need the wheelchair more. Two Bedrooms, mine having an en-suite wet room/bathroom, plus walk in closet, again plenty of room to get about. The second bedroom decent size not that I anticipate guests just maybe my granddaughter occasionally.

Then my pièce de résistance would be my library/ office, floor to ceiling custom built book cases with glass doors to protect the books from dust. Every subject I can think of and years of collecting rare and old books. It would just be fitting to see them in the best setting I can give them. My desk old and marked but perfect for me with its leather inlay, my pc 🖥️ on another desk with printers lying silent. The bungalow is ready to move in clean and fresh

Oh I nearly forgot in the back garden is a rather large shed but when you step inside it is a a hobby shop or craft room whatever you want to call it. All my paints and transfers are waiting for me in there

A walkway joins my chalet/bungalow to my workshop and the borders are made up of fragrant herbs, as you go down it.

A pergola covers the patio ready to provide shade in the sun. This peaceful haven is just a short wheelchair from a quaint village that has everything needed including company, not that I seek company too often. My rules change living there, if out in the village having a coffee or working on a painting or most importantly writing no mobile phone allowed, I lived without it for many years and now the thing rules my life. So my ideal dream home has a sign

Visitors please don’t bring your phones in here, they seriously damage our conversation.

I guess we all dream and dreams hurt no one, for now I give thanks I have a roof over my head and space to move. I am slowly working towards turning my home into my castle and bungalow combination, so it could be said I am living the best of two worlds in one.

Stay safe, stay happy, smile on my friends

Till we meet again

Adiós 👋 Hwyl 👋Auiho 👋 Salut,👋 Au revoir 👋Auf Wiedersehen 👋Arrivederci 👋Zàijiàn 👋 Sayōnara 👋Annyeong 👋. Do svidaniya 👋 bye🤗

Apologies if I have misspelled or missed your language out I just picked a random amount so I could say bye to all

Kim-Louise

The future?

What are you most excited about for the future?

Hello dear readers of today, have I missed some major news article regarding the future? No I didn’t think so. Let me entertain you with the of life ME

Now we have a word called yesterday, well it’s gone nothing you can do about it, it happened, move on, it’s behind you (in the words of my mental health provider). With a flick of the wrist as if pushing an imaginary past behind her, she dismissed my whole domestic violence background and other major life struggles, as if puff 💨 wow, everything would disappear. Big mistake Woman, I wasn’t alone, I had a friend with me. 1. To push my wheelchair. 2. To help me with memory and stop me from freezing up. 3. Because of my PTSD I am terrible at being alone, no change that I couldn’t be alone when out.

My friend witnessed every word said, Claire has become my friend over the years I have known her, but her official title is personal assistant (posh for carer).

So back to yesterday, gone but Hell and Damnation it is not forgotten, all our yesterdays make us who we are and are learning curves( supposed to be). Also just to be a tiny bit pedantic here but if we are to forget YESTERDAY isn’t that what history is a culmination of all of the yesterdays of the world? 🌍

Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it. ‘ George Santayana

Ok moving on

Today, the Present. Well each day is a new start and it’s a chance to right wrongs , finish tasks, watch that movie you have been promising you would, but how many people make full use of each moment. We are allotted an amount of time in this world, a commodity that you cannot buy or sell, ok smart arse, yes clocks and watches etc but they don’t lengthen your life. The issue is how many people use their time to the max (I don’t). I leave so much not done even though I have plans, nothing falls into place, the harder I seem to try the worse it gets. I keep saying I just want the house and garden to look like my plans to be tidy not jumbled and bop there is always an issue. We should all be living our best life and I guarantee not many people are.

I am lucky to have a home I know that , I am lucky to have furniture to fill it and I am grateful for what I have. Becoming disabled in my late 40s and being uprooted so many times has made life so difficult. I am grateful I was able to protect my children as they asked, it cost me family and friends and I live alone now, the children have grown and I am redundant as are all parents eventually. I just would have liked my present to have been a little more settled. That’s enough of my present.

Now we go the future , who know what will happen, I don’t see peace anytime soon, I would like to see order in my life so I can concentrate on finish some of the projects I have waiting in the sidelines

I never think of the future.It comes soon enough.” – Albert Einstein.

Truth is I am not looking forward nor backward I am concentrating on now, because, yesterday is past, tomorrow is whisper away, today is all I have here in the present

With love as ever

Kim-Louise

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” – Buddha

LOL

What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

Well hello to all,

What absolutely amazing thing to contemplate answering. What is my favourite thing about myself? I have laughed so much over this question Thank goodness I came back this morning to complete this note and post it.

So to the point, in a round about way, I can say without a doubt, hand on heart it is not my amazing model like figure, well I do look like a triple bellied Hippo, in a pink tutu. Very much like the Disney Fantasia movie.

My voice ? No , oh boy, although I would make money being paid to not sing 🎶, I am of just slightly above average intelligence, not anything to make a fuss about. I have been less abled for 15yrs so definitely not that.

I write a lot about many things hoping one day to finish one particular piece as a book. Now I had been read through this chuckling to myself, when I realised that was my favourite thing about myself , my humour, my ability to turn any situation thrown at me and find a funny side and not let it bring me down. Oh it used to, but like a switch that had been flipped, it became- oh dear this woman has had enough rubbish to deal with . Time to change

If I can laugh at my own writing and make a few others laugh. 🤭 plus I think I missed my calling as a sit down comedian, come on whoever heard of a stand up comedian who couldn’t stand, so I would have been a sit-down.

So there is my favourite thing about myself ⭐️ My humour ⭐️

Oh and that that my heart though still metaphorically shattered, still beats, therefore I am grateful to be alive 🫀

Take care all

Kim-Louise

Bring Me Sunshine

How do you want to retire?

Hello again,

Now how do I want to retire?

What a question, simple answer would be alive and in one piece. But there is an issue with my flippant answer. 1. Technically I am retired due to disability. 2. There lies the next issue, I am not in one piece because of the aforementioned disability.

So that changes my whole perspective on retirement, it is a scary financial time to contemplate. So on that note when retirement age descends upon me by a blessing from above it would be lovely if I didn’t have to spend my last years of life struggling like I have spent majority of my adult life. Oh I have worked, and put my heart and soul into several jobs, domestic violence robbed me of my mobility and health.

☀️☀️☀️☀️

So retirement bring me sunshine

Bring me love

Bring me happiness

Sorted my funeral, no clouds above

🌅🌅🌅🌅

You are never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream.”
—C.S. Lewis

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This is My Life

What is the legacy you want to leave behind?

Hello again, hello.

To everyone who cares to read I say hello.

A legacy – the long-lasting impact of particular events, actions, etc. that took place in the past, or of a person’s life ( copied from Oxford Language Dictionary)

B legacy- an amount of money or property left to someone in a will.

So I am aware of what I would like to leave as my legacy the only issue is, no matter how you go about things someone will always find a reason to put you down. Now ok I will be gone my physical body reduced to dust so why am I thinking about it because I had hoped in death I would have received better than I did in life.

So I am hoping that my written words will have an impact, a glimpse into the world of me. The words no one listened to, a poignant glimpse into the trials of who I was and survival. The comedy of life and observation of the world around me.

The other part of my legacy is my children and grandchildren to carry on their hard work. To carry forth love and laughter out onto this world

Till the next time

Kim-Louise

Wrong Question

What sacrifices have you made in life?

Hello to one or more of you that are kind enough to drop by to read the insane ramblings from a over active mind.

Well I was purusing my messages earlier and up popped this prompt about what sacrifices have I made in life. At first I was tempted to just leave it, but it kept pulling me back. So I thought it’s my mind, and it wants to have its say. I can’t help the way it will read or what people might say.

Sometimes just sometimes, we all need to be recognised for what we have done or not done for someone else.

Now my gears are running let’s go

I have sacrificed more than I can explain in a single piece of writing (most people would be asleep with boredom after the first 15 minutes) hence. That is why I am attempting to write my book. Anyways I digress;

From the Cambridge Dictionary

Sacrifice

to give up something that is valuable to you in order to helpanother person:

sacrifice something for something Many women sacrifice interesting careers for their families

I have sacrificed my everything, home, health, future and happiness to protect and love people who have no idea the true horrors of a domestic violence relationship and what you go through for your children. After all it’s so true no one knows what goes on behind closed doors.

Must go speak soon

From the lady in the chair (wheelchair)

Kim-Louise

Absolutely No Surprise Here

What public figure do you disagree with the most?

My Dear Friends

I had to reply to this also I have missed you all

A name on many people’s lips, if the UK is your home.

Sir Kier Starmer our (cough, choke,🤬) Prime Minister, yes I moan.

But I am not alone in my disappointment, disagreement

Downright disgust at someone who is selling his country out.

I’m not afraid to say this, I’m asking please arrest me. throw away the key

Be the first time I have had three meals a day, for a while you see

I’m disabled, wheelchair user, non smoker, born in the Uk

As was so many generations of my family, farmers I will just say.

Sorry if I offend, no scrap that cause sorry I am not

But if this country lets that Llama carry out

His plans to take every Tom Dick and Ali

The Uk will sink, all cause Sir Llama’s let’s all be pally….

Now this is an awful attempt at a rhyme and I could have written something so much more eloquent, BUT this man, this Llama ok I know his name is Starmer but to me he is a woolly headed arrogant creature that promises one thing then spits in your face. Go on say it but Llamas can’t promise, well they do, they look so innocent so they give the vibe of a promise. Back to my crap rhyme, I did it like that because I did not want to loose my cool so made it as short as I could, like I wish his term was in 10 Downing Street.

I have to add this politically I normally am quite chilled but I have survived some scrapes in life, I always say I am a survivor but when the news is pounding with it’s costing our country over £8 million per day just to house incoming illegals (I don’t do political talk at the end of the day a spade is a spade) that cost is rising with the amount that are coming here.

Now I have had to have my income stopped to be put on a separate benefit which will in effect lower my income over a period of time. I don’t go on holiday, I don’t have takeaways and 5 days a week I have 1 meal a day then 2 days I have 2 meals it’s all about cost . Now the change over of money means no money for between 5 and 8 weeks this is Starmers Britain. I know there are worse off and some just like me, I also know that people will say he inherited a broken Britain but Conservatives inherited the same broken Britain from The great and glorious Tony Blair.

Maybe I should sit on the beach with some brown shoe polish and a pair of water wings (I am not a racist but this man is actually turning this country into racists) back to the beach 🏖️ with my luck someone would call greenpeace and i would be pushed back into the water mistaken as a beached whale 🐳.with the boot polish they would say Orca.

That’s it I can feel me marching as if to war so it’s down keyboard and watch tv or something less taxing 😉

Much love

Kim-Louise

Fun 🤩 5 Things

List five things you do for fun.

Dear friend,

I have been absent, for that please accept my apologies and let us move forward in life.

This looks like a fun exercise list five things I do for fun !! !! !! !! !! !! !! – maybe it was a little more difficult than I thought. In my pre less-abled diva days I would have listed 5 and 5 more just for fun. Now I just do things to get through the day.

Oh no you don’t, this is no pity party, this is my brain trying to kickstart its dusty motor a little .

Here we go

I write, it’s therapeutic for me, don’t care if it never gets read I am happy with it. I find my mind whirling and ideas flash, next I am away in a story and calm as can be.
Ray Bradbury: “Just write every day of your life. Read intensely. Then see what happens
Reading, a good book can transport you anytime, anyplace, any part of the imagination. A book can be an amazing friend.
The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you’ll go.” – Dr. Seuss
Messing with paint, now I can’t paint in the conventional terms but I love the paint flow and ebb colour mix’s etc so I have fun with paint and canvas.
Painting is just another way of keeping a diary: — Pablo Picasso
Craft work, sewing, crochet, knitting, model making and on it goes.
“Crafting is a way to make something out of nothing.” – Anon
Meditation, well this keeps me grounded, sane, helps with pain and really is calming. Not that good at selling an idea but that’s the general idea for me. My only problem if I become to calm of an evening meditating I make sure I am on my bed, I have been known to wake up the following morning. All I can say is I needed that sleep.
Sleep is the best meditation.” – Tenzin Gyatso, 14th Dalai Lama

So my boring five keep me almost sane and yep definitely 👍🏻 alive

Catch you soon

Kim-Louise

? ? ?

If you had a freeway billboard, what would it say?

Hello again, so pleased you are here.

So the question of the day is

If you had a freeway billboard, what would it say?

Now I am going to be slightly pedantic with this. I live in the UK 🇬🇧 we don’t have freeways we have motorways. I just like to point little differences out mostly because I can.

Now a billboard advertises something be it a product or event, as I am neither that I am aware of ( 🤔 ) that would leave me at an odds.

I could leave my

smiles 😁 can travel many miles, so start a few today. 😁😉😁

I send the sunshine along with smiles

Live, laugh, love, but do it now today.This Present, tomorrow is just a promise, yesterday has left.

But I decided to go with my title white background 3 question marks in black and a huge QR code linking to my webpage and hopefully my future

The ? ? ?

Would I hope have people intrigued enough to ask questions and want to know more

Take care speak soon

Kim

Deep in thought

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

Hello my friend,

I do hope you are well?

Now I admit to thinking occasionally about the past because, yes deep intake of breath, I portion blame on myself for allowing a man to act in such a manner toward me, that domestic violence took my mobility away.

Everyone thinks I am bitter towards him. I’m not I am angry at myself for not having the courage to walk away. That is why I look back sometimes at the person I lost Me.

Do I look forward to the future more more?

Not really, I am, if I’m honest a little scared what the future may or may not hold. How much has the past impacted my future it worries me, so I leave the future where it is in the future.

I think I am happiest here, now, focusing on what I have and can do.

Because the past is gone, I

The future is just a dream

What we have is the present, which in all honesty is a true gift 🎁

So I am wasting no more time on regrets or future dreams, I am living for the present

Have a wonderful day/evening

Till next time 🕰️

Kim…