But When Did I Feel I Belonged

Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.

Dear Friends

Well this I guess should be be kept amongst as we are good friends by now, I have after all been writing to you for a number of months. I saw todays prompt and it was like a beacon saying that I should avoid , look away, don’t respond. So

Keep Smiling

Love

Ok I can’t leave it, Tell us about a time when you felt out of place?

All of my childhood from when I can first remember to the the age of well May this year and that makes me 57. A long time to feel you are out of place and don’t belong , a long time to hate yourself and blame yourself for every single thing that happened for the whole family because I felt I was in the wrong place, I didn’t belong. when it wasn’t me, I actually wasn’t wanted as a child .

Then when everything tumbled around me in May and I very nearly became another statistic

I saw that I belonged exactly where I was and all the years I had wasted feeling so bad about me and my life were for nothing. But hopefully I can live in the moment now and see with clarity that unfortunately there was nothing I could have done in this case , it was a series of events that seemed to follow through my life but in a strange way I was attracting them, not intentionally. Just because I was of the mind set I was not good enough, it had put me in a negative downhill spiral.

Now because of circumstances I broke that cycle because I nearly broke myself, life is not perfect but it’s better than it was , I now can safely say I may have been born in 1966 but I was born and I didn’t fit, I was reborn in 2023 and I fit in my life so much better mentally that is. Still waiting for an upgrade on that body, you know the one slim, curvy, no wheelchair, hair that never frizzes, a face that is perfect without make up…….. oops sorry that’s me thinking aloud with my fingers

Man Is The Most Extraordinary Computer of All

Your life without a computer: what does it look like?

My Dearest Friend

Oh life was so much fun before the complexities of the computer. I remember a time when there was no PC 🖥️, laptop 💻 or device with computer abilities that beckoned you, calling with an almost silent humming like a siren to mesmerise one for hours.

A PC 🖥️ was to make life easier yet it has made us slaves to its technology, and our intelligence has changed, research is a flick of the button not books and libraries and actually doing the legwork that used to be done.

There is of course some good from computers as it can bring communities together and people have been able to access online courses cheaper than the distance learning used to be.

But to go back to todays prompt life today without a computer, what does it look like? For me it looks like bliss, I don’t need the social media and without a PC I would probably get more done. In all honesty it’s the internet I would be happier to lose and have a pc 🖥️ for word processing, I also would love to lose the mobile phone or just have a phone not a smartphone because it is addictive and dulls the intellect. I believe we are becoming antisocial, rude and almost hermits bent double over the ruler of our lives technology

Keep Smiling

Speak soon

Kim

Repetition Is The Mother Of All Skills

What skill would you like to learn?

Dear Reader

How exciting it would be, to learn a new skill, but what should it be?

I can bake and cook,

I can sew and mend

Paint and paper and decorate my house! Ok I used too before my wheelchair held me back

I don’t want to do plumbing or be an Electrician.

So what do I want to learn? A language ❌

Knitting ❌

There must be something, then the small voice SCREAMS from the back of my head you need to organise your life your home your mind that is the Skill you need to learn.

How can my brain function when everything is in disarray, bills, shopping, clothes, desk, forgetting to eat. Come on woman learn that skill set .

With that I am now looking for the work book organisation home, life, mind, but I seemed to have misplaced it .

Think I need to look at the skill of minimalist and how to achieve said life. first. Oops

Bye for now

Kim

Trait! What Trait

What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

Dearest Friend(s)

This is the last Saturday in September and here has been chilly with overcast grey clouds a totally dull and dismal day

So back to the prompt ‘what trait do I value most about myself, to be totally honest I don’t know. I have thought about it so much all day and this prompt has me so confused about myself.

So I came to say it’s ok not to be sure what trait you most value it’s ok not to be sure which one is the worst one you have. Because you are an individual and people who know you will be aware of your good points. I expect I could say half a dozen things but this prompt almost had a pompous feel to it

Role up look at Me

Im a Survivor do you see,

Empathic, Loyal, Kind, I Care,

No Competition alls just Fair

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Take care lovelies

Sharing Smiles

Kim

Always Walk On The Bright Side Of Life

What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever received?

Dear Friends

In the 57 year I have been on this earth I have probably been given much advice, more than I can possibly remember. Some has been very inspirational, some practical. And some, well, definitely not the best but probably the most comical advice, for example and no explanations given look it up or ask a friend if you don’t understand

Remember only chickens produce anything good sat on their backsides (farming background)

Don’t eat yellow snow ⛄️

Don’t back racehorses.

Silence is golden, till you have kids, then it’s, what the heck are they up to now

Now many people will wonder why I have put those in , simply because there will be so many of the normal live laugh love, living wholesome lives, be happy etc all I could think of was the comical things. Those are the ones that have got me through life,

There is nothing amazing that stands out in my mind, the only thing I would pass to anyone else is

Follow your path your dreams, live your life, walk your journey. Don’t let anyone stop you from being YOU.

Keep Smiling

Kim

Here We Go

Which topics would you like to be more informed about?

Dear Friends

In school I was taught to sit up straight,

Face the front, and listen with your ears and mouths to stay shut.

In school I learnt my ABC write the way through to XYZ

I learnt to write, spelling my name, then on to reading loved that it’s plain.

In school I went on to learn the rest History, Sciences, Technical Skills,

Mathematics, Languages, and Cookery at the end we sat exams took tests.

But in my education which was pretty much the norm for late 1970’s UK

I wanted and still do want to learn about LIFE, and how to LIVE a better way

Life should be a lesson that all kids take at 10, 15 and 20 and a top up at 30 if in doubt

I want to know more about how not to hurt so much, how to survive

Include in the lesson budgets and relationships, raising children, working, planning meals, handling emotional issues and mentoring.

So there we have it I would like to learn more about life, oh and AI plus a little more about psychology actually I just want to learn as much as I can while I can

Keep Smiling

Kim

“If music be the food of love, play on.” – William Shakespeare

What would your life be like without music?

Hello My Friends

That for me is a difficult question, although I love music 🎶 I listened mostly when driving, so when my health deteriorated and I could no longer drive, I seemed to stop listening to music so much.

I live in a world of almost silence, I would say 95% of my life is silence 🤐. I don’t like it but it is a coping mechanism for me. On a good day music is on and an out of tune, once alto voice now more a harpy can be heard warbling all the right words. Only they sound wrong because the singers get the lyrics back to front all the time. Amateurs!

Those days are few and far between, not me getting the words right and everyone else singing some other rubbish that happens all the time 😂 but music, radio even tv can stop the sound of silence. Unless you suffer the same way it is difficult to understand.

So for the days when I close my eyes and my mind waltzes me of to Strauss’s, Blue Danube or I’m in the mood for a little,

Come on Eileen by Dexteys Midnight Runners, a little

Miley, or even dad

Billy-Ray,

Bob Marley,

Johnny Cash.

The list could go on for a very long time but that’s not what this is about, for those moments that throw me back to happier times, a world without music 🎼 would turn this dark place in which I live, into a black abyss. Never to have hope of seeing the light again, never to feel the sun on my face. That is what life would be like taking away that final bit of joy left that I have.

Keep the sun shining

Keep the Music 🎶 Playing

Keep your smile’s beaming

Kim

And So I 😂😊😂

How often do you walk or run?

Dear Friends

I am sending you all a bucket of smiles because I just made an extra batch of 😊 and I shall tell you why.

Todays prompt made me smile then laugh because as if walking wasn’t hard enough, running 🏃‍♀️!! The only running I do is when I turn on the sink taps to run the water 💦.

My wheelchair and I have a pact I sit still and it won’t run out on me. it works very well.

As much as my body is in limp mode my brain is not and that is what keeps me going.

Everyone don’t stress, do what you are good at, and let the world 🌎 do what it does and that is, keep turning.

So have a great day and if it doesn’t feel great at the moment do something to make it a memorable day.

Keep that Smile it suits you

Regards

Kim

Words So Powerful

If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

Hello all, or one, or just me musing to myself. I have had a break from here for a while, too much going on, mostly in my head, but that is quite often the case. Dramas, crisis, mountains to molehills. Anyway I always pop on and have a look see what’s occurring and todays little prompt, prompted me to ….return……

HATE is the word I would happily give up here and now, it is a strong emotive word that evokes flashes of childlike behaviour but a mix of dark thoughts liberally sprinkling to paint a black scene.

As a child you hear the normal playground ‘I hate you, you smell’ five minutes later best friends. That is when it starts, as a teen I looked in the mirror and said aloud to an empty room I hate you, the seed is watered. I hated my hair, I hated my face, my choices, it ate away at me. And it grew stronger

I would catch site of myself and mutter go away I hate you. I found the word slipped to easy I hated food I hated places at times I hated life.

I do wonder if this negative word is what has drawn so many negative people into my life and therefore given me a negative outlook and life. I try to look on the bright side but since I have had to use a wheelchair, the bright side is behind a high wall and just can’t see over it . So I hate the wheelchair, see on and on it goes.

The word HATE is one that serves no purpose for me I have learnt after many years and many tears to look into a mirror into my own eyes and change my words to –

“Hey Good Looking” “What’s up Buttercup, You Look Pretty Good Today” a different approach in words has made me feel a million times better well ok at least 1000 times better

Positive words positive thoughts.

Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that. -Martin Luther King Jr

Not the Quantity but the Context

What is a word you feel that too many people use?

Love is a many splendored thing, or is it?

The word is overused and underrated, does anyone actually mean what they say?

Ok you can say I Love you to your children and that is generally a true statement.

But more and more the word is tossed around widely without thought or a real understanding of what Love means

an intense feeling of deep affection.

When you use it between humans or your bet lion 🦁 etc 😜

The word Love ❤️ is just everywhere, so much so that when it is used I no longer listen to it, Love you darling,

You are the Love of my life

I love your dress

And on it goes so from now on stick the loves and Luvs and I will just;

Smile 😊 and wave

Just return the Smile one day my friends 😊😂

We don’t say ‘I love you’
To those we really love.
Only to those we are deceiving
Or wish to console…. Louis Yako

“Be someone’s rainbow today.”