What a question, simple answer would be alive and in one piece. But there is an issue with my flippant answer. 1. Technically I am retired due to disability. 2. There lies the next issue, I am not in one piece because of the aforementioned disability.
So that changes my whole perspective on retirement, it is a scary financial time to contemplate. So on that note when retirement age descends upon me by a blessing from above it would be lovely if I didn’t have to spend my last years of life struggling like I have spent majority of my adult life. Oh I have worked, and put my heart and soul into several jobs, domestic violence robbed me of my mobility and health.
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So retirement bring me sunshine
Bring me love
Bring me happiness
Sorted my funeral, no clouds above
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You are never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream.” —C.S. Lewis
What’s the oldest thing you own that you still use daily?
Dearest Friend
I have thought about this long and hard and the oldest thing that belongs to me, that is in daily use I hate to say is falling apart, and as it is a limited edition there are no spare parts. The chassis is twisted, it’s done too many miles. Paintwork is faded and to be honest the seat padding is bursting out all over.
The oldest thing I have in daily use is MYSELF. 59 in yrs feel 89 at times but my mind thinks I am still 19
Feel Like A Clapped Out Vehicle
Apart from my soft toy rabbit who is the same age as me and actually looks worse than I do(if that’s possible) anything older I own ie crockery is used for special occasions. Ornaments are in glass cabinets. I on the other hand am a living almost working relic of 1966 a disabled diva with a sense of humour and sarcasm in sacks
A legacy – the long-lasting impact of particular events, actions, etc. that took place in the past, or of a person’s life ( copied from Oxford Language Dictionary)
B legacy- an amount of money or property left to someone in a will.
So I am aware of what I would like to leave as my legacy the only issue is, no matter how you go about things someone will always find a reason to put you down. Now ok I will be gone my physical body reduced to dust so why am I thinking about it because I had hoped in death I would have received better than I did in life.
So I am hoping that my written words will have an impact, a glimpse into the world of me. The words no one listened to, a poignant glimpse into the trials of who I was and survival. The comedy of life and observation of the world around me.
The other part of my legacy is my children and grandchildren to carry on their hard work. To carry forth love and laughter out onto this world
What a day today has been, I woke up with my eyes opening, wider and then, I can say hand on heart I had my eyes wide open. Seriously it was amazing, Then I said to myself ‘What a wonderful world’. I asked the device that’s always listen (no not Sir Starmer Llamas army) to ‘Turn the Radio on’ .
One final check in the mirror before starting my day I heard ‘Nellie the Elephant 🐘 packed her trunk’, playing on the radio and smiling to myself I went to make a coffee.
I was ‘Walking on Sunshine’ or rather sitting on the stairlift and gliding on sunshine streaming through the window.
Oops forgot about the reason I came here to write to you and chat, well I saw this little prompt or question whatever you wish to call it, interesting was my second thought, my first being another cup of coffee.
So how do I feel about cold weather ? Well several things to be fair, I am not an Eskimo nor am I an Amazonian Warrior Women .
I do not like cold because my legs ache, my muscles cramp, and my internal thermostat seem have to broken. So my feet are always cold and look slightly blue.
On the other hand I am not happy with heat either as again I cannot control my internal temperature
So conclusion;
I am not an Eskimo, neither do I ever or have I ever fancied holidaying in colder corners of the globe. So therefore I am not a fan of the cold, freezing, or frozen, re the cold, what’s the point all I do is wrap up and get the blankets out, until it warms a little. I’m rather lucky as here in the UK 🇬🇧 we don’t suffer to much with extremes in temperatures but we suffer with not being able to afford to heat our homes. That though is another story and not a fairy story either, one full of wicked lies and robbing greedy people, demons and wizards 😂😂
Actually I think if I was told I had to live in colder climates I would go live in a bear den and hibernate till the sun shone and the ground warmed again.
Good Day Sunshine
The Beatles
Good day sunshine Good day sunshine Good day sunshine
I need to laugh, and when the sun is out I’ve got something I can laugh about I feel good, in a special way I’m in love and it’s a sunny day
Stay warm or cool whichever is your preference you are all still part of the same wonderful crazy bunch of humans on this planet that could all be friends if you wanted to be.
Hello to one or more of you that are kind enough to drop by to read the insane ramblings from a over active mind.
Well I was purusing my messages earlier and up popped this prompt about what sacrifices have I made in life. At first I was tempted to just leave it, but it kept pulling me back. So I thought it’s my mind, and it wants to have its say. I can’t help the way it will read or what people might say.
Sometimes just sometimes, we all need to be recognised for what we have done or not done for someone else.
Now my gears are running let’s go
I have sacrificed more than I can explain in a single piece of writing (most people would be asleep with boredom after the first 15 minutes) hence. That is why I am attempting to write my book. Anyways I digress;
I have sacrificed my everything, home, health, future and happiness to protect and love people who have no idea the true horrors of a domestic violence relationship and what you go through for your children. After all it’s so true no one knows what goes on behind closed doors.
I have been absent, for that please accept my apologies and let us move forward in life.
This looks like a fun exercise list five things I do for fun !! !! !! !! !! !! !! – maybe it was a little more difficult than I thought. In my pre less-abled diva days I would have listed 5 and 5 more just for fun. Now I just do things to get through the day.
Oh no you don’t, this is no pity party, this is my brain trying to kickstart its dusty motor a little .
Here we go
I write, it’s therapeutic for me, don’t care if it never gets read I am happy with it. I find my mind whirling and ideas flash, next I am away in a story and calm as can be. Ray Bradbury: “Just write every day of your life. Read intensely. Then see what happens
Reading, a good book can transport you anytime, anyplace, any part of the imagination. A book can be an amazing friend. The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you’ll go.” – Dr. Seuss
Messing with paint, now I can’t paint in the conventional terms but I love the paint flow and ebb colour mix’s etc so I have fun with paint and canvas. Painting is just another way of keeping a diary: — Pablo Picasso
Craft work, sewing, crochet, knitting, model making and on it goes. “Crafting is a way to make something out of nothing.” – Anon
Meditation, well this keeps me grounded, sane, helps with pain and really is calming. Not that good at selling an idea but that’s the general idea for me. My only problem if I become to calm of an evening meditating I make sure I am on my bed, I have been known to wake up the following morning. All I can say is I needed that sleep. Sleep is the best meditation.” – Tenzin Gyatso, 14th Dalai Lama
So my boring five keep me almost sane and yep definitely 👍🏻 alive
What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life?
Hello, yes me again.
I just stopped to talk about this concept of living a very long life, which I will add could be considered controversial.
Like all living creatures we have an allotted time span some leave earlier, which is heartbreaking 💔, others live to over 100yrs of age. None of us know when it’s our turn, what we should be asking is ;
What are your thoughts on living for today, instead of putting things off for another day or a time that may never come
Anyway going back to the question, as of today, at the age of 58, I have my funeral paid for and money to pay any outstanding debts that I may have left,
I have a body that is like a battered old car, dented, parts worn, parts broken, non replaceable. My brain is a little like the engine, due to the domestic violence and other matters I have ptsd and suffer with depression so the engine in the car has a lot of faults,electrical issues.
So in my case I personally do not like the concept of living a long life, for me it would be a long painful lonely life.
The argument for it would be if you had no illness and were in a good place, then obviously that would be different I suppose.
I think I am going to stick with my don’t put off anything till tomorrow because we may only have today in which to do it.
Bucket of Smiles 