Oh bother

What bothers you and why?

Dear Friend

I just wanted to say you look good today. No don’t shake your head you are looking good. Don’t give me the I’m to old or skinny, rotund or haven’t got me teeth in, whatever excuse you are going to think of I am telling you that I think you look amazing. Please keep that in mind and, hang on 👣👣👣👣👣👣👣 ok I’m back can you catch this

That’s it, my bucket 🪣 of smiles, take a handful for yourself and share them out, give a smile to a stranger that you meet, it maybe the only friendly gesture on their street. Share those smiles far and wide, I always make many more, actually a fresh batch every day, I can find and post the recipe another day.

Ah that leads me to what bothers me the most, right here and now, in 2025, without being political because I could kick up a storm there. No I promised myself to be a better person in, err, starting, um, err, July 2025 .

What bothers me the most here and now is how little happiness is found in the United Kingdom 🇬🇧. Even during war time people pulled together and helped one another out. Ok not everyone but a percentage of the population got together. Now people have lost all ability to socialise and enjoy themselves hooked on mobile phones. It’s a sad place to live when schools are so concerned about safeguarding the wrong things that actual bullying goes unseen. When children can’t talk about their heritage because the British heritage is seen as not part of multi cultural. Our pensioners are concerned about their future with every government statement All this bothers me because our country is a sad place to live, NOW.

All I would love to do is share smiles to those that need them, what’s a disabled dizzy diva to do

Non of this is intended to cause upset to anyone this is just what bothers me

Much love and friendship to you

Kim-Louise

This has made me think!!

What’s the oldest thing you own that you still use daily?

Dearest Friend

I have thought about this long and hard and the oldest thing that belongs to me, that is in daily use I hate to say is falling apart, and as it is a limited edition there are no spare parts. The chassis is twisted, it’s done too many miles. Paintwork is faded and to be honest the seat padding is bursting out all over.

The oldest thing I have in daily use is MYSELF. 59 in yrs feel 89 at times but my mind thinks I am still 19

Feel Like A Clapped Out Vehicle

Apart from my soft toy rabbit who is the same age as me and actually looks worse than I do(if that’s possible) anything older I own ie crockery is used for special occasions. Ornaments are in glass cabinets. I on the other hand am a living almost working relic of 1966 a disabled diva with a sense of humour and sarcasm in sacks

Good day my friend

May all that you need be provided

And all of your wishes be considered.

This is My Life

What is the legacy you want to leave behind?

Hello again, hello.

To everyone who cares to read I say hello.

A legacy – the long-lasting impact of particular events, actions, etc. that took place in the past, or of a person’s life ( copied from Oxford Language Dictionary)

B legacy- an amount of money or property left to someone in a will.

So I am aware of what I would like to leave as my legacy the only issue is, no matter how you go about things someone will always find a reason to put you down. Now ok I will be gone my physical body reduced to dust so why am I thinking about it because I had hoped in death I would have received better than I did in life.

So I am hoping that my written words will have an impact, a glimpse into the world of me. The words no one listened to, a poignant glimpse into the trials of who I was and survival. The comedy of life and observation of the world around me.

The other part of my legacy is my children and grandchildren to carry on their hard work. To carry forth love and laughter out onto this world

Till the next time

Kim-Louise

Wrong Question

What sacrifices have you made in life?

Hello to one or more of you that are kind enough to drop by to read the insane ramblings from a over active mind.

Well I was purusing my messages earlier and up popped this prompt about what sacrifices have I made in life. At first I was tempted to just leave it, but it kept pulling me back. So I thought it’s my mind, and it wants to have its say. I can’t help the way it will read or what people might say.

Sometimes just sometimes, we all need to be recognised for what we have done or not done for someone else.

Now my gears are running let’s go

I have sacrificed more than I can explain in a single piece of writing (most people would be asleep with boredom after the first 15 minutes) hence. That is why I am attempting to write my book. Anyways I digress;

From the Cambridge Dictionary

Sacrifice

to give up something that is valuable to you in order to helpanother person:

sacrifice something for something Many women sacrifice interesting careers for their families

I have sacrificed my everything, home, health, future and happiness to protect and love people who have no idea the true horrors of a domestic violence relationship and what you go through for your children. After all it’s so true no one knows what goes on behind closed doors.

Must go speak soon

From the lady in the chair (wheelchair)

Kim-Louise

To Vote or not to Vote?

Do you vote in political elections?

Although I live in the UK, a supposedly open and transparent western country, the politicians are as crooked as Fagin from Oliver Twist . Before any and I mean any election there are promises made for every party, then the backbiting between parties, he/she/it said this/that/the other. So the voters in this country are either a staunch X, Y, Z voter or confused as hell who to trust and either put a cross by who they guess has made a plausible sounding statement or the worst outcome develop an apathy towards the whole voting experience.

So yes I vote and because I can’t get to the polling station I have a postal vote.

At least when things go wrong I can legitimately moan or hang my head in shame because I helped someone onto a local or district council or become an MP therefore putting a new ruling party over our country

Thus giving a type of ultimate power

Ultimate power, ultimately corrupts, how true this seems to be in what was once formally known as Great Britain, now she hangs her head in shame as we sink into the murky waters that surround us

What is Life if not a Challenge.

What are your biggest challenges?

Dear friend,

Happy New Year, this is day one of 2025 and the first year I have decided not to make any resolutions.

There are a few reasons for my decision, number one being they don’t last. I actually feel I have enough challenges ahead of me without putting anymore strain on myself.

I have a list as long as my arm some personal, some things that have to be achieved. But nevertheless all are to me big challenges for someone in my position.

When I share parts of my life it’s never for sympathy or compassion, plus I am aware that there are people far worse off than I am. I guess it all depends on where you live in this world as to how you live your life, what your home is like, running water, shops or not.

I live in the UK, my life has been a whirlwind of destruction, from the age of 12-13 till now at 58. I can remember all the good things but sometimes it’s like looking through a mist to find them. Because of the Domestic Violence I have been through.

1. Now my challenges I face are after being moved and moved by police for safety, I have never allowed myself to settle and call a place home, now the children are grown and left to start there own families , it’s time for me to accept this town and place and make it my home. So now I find myself with a place that has some heart in it but nothing is as it should be. My house is a disaster zone not a home. I have this huge challenge to turn this place into the home I want to live in and be happy with on a budget of £5 and two buttons

2. Second challenge. Due to disability I’m limited to what I can move/lift even knowing if I can stay awake longer than an hour so that’s a challenge in itself. I have to find a way of not battling this but working with it , not blaming my ex but taking back control and pacing myself so that if today is a wipe-out ok no worries here’s hoping tomorrow is better. Make no plans and go with whatever I can cope with. I have had a long time to try and manage this but the GP surgery has been less than helpful, until recently. Now with a fresh approach in my mind I’m changing this challenge from a mountain to climb to a hill to come down. As it feels like I have been stuck on a hilltop alone for so long,battling several things now I am coming down and finding myself own way that’s my challenge

3. My third challenge has been driving me mad for a long time because I have been approaching it wrong, I have been writing for as long as I can remember and I have reams of poems, two manuscripts and a couple of children’s books to put forward to look at publishing. Obviously I have to work on them, this is where I derail my own train, so I have been told. Well I am no longer in a train I am on a huge galleon ship floating on the clouds. No rails for me to come off , no water to drown in. Because the whole thing is magical there are no planes or any type of aircraft to disturb me. So my challenge here is to smoothly sail the now still clouds and finish the edits needed as my procrastination will be dealt with in challenge 2. Making this one a much smaller hill to climb I hope.

There are plenty of challenges in life, money, disability equipment i.e wheelchair, money (oh mentioned that already), mental health, ptsd, money 😁, and on it goes.

But that’s enough for today, tomorrow I start afresh, I do hope you are having a lovely day

Regards

Kim

Bumbling Buffoons

How have your political views changed over time?

Dear friend,

I must apologise for the title to this piece, you see when I was younger I really believed Santa Claus was real and that our political parties wanted what was best for our nation (I live in the UK 🇬🇧).

Then I got a little older and at 16 the Uk sent the Military to a political incident in the Falkland Islands,normally I would say it’s called war when missiles are fired and people die. This was under the Conservative Leadership of Margaret Thatcher.

I decided that I didn’t believe in Santa and I would be Labour if getting people killed was being a Conservative. Also unemployment was high and a lot more issues at the time.

Now go further down the line Labour, Tony Blair once one of the most popular of prime ministers this country has ever seen. But like many people before him and many more to come, ultimate power ultimately corrupts.

A quote from “the Spectator” “In crucial areas, he wanted change for change’s sake, with no thought to the long-term consequences”

It’s almost like he got up one morning and started galloping through English and European Law and decided to start the process of change to things that did not need changing.

Then there was Iraq- I will say no more on that subject only ;

There was no need

So I changed again I looked left and right and in the middle and decided, politicians are not from the same world, the ones in government that is. The ones that influence and run the country have no idea how us mere mortals survive a bleak winter, while they sit in cosy homes, not worried about counting every last penny, or can they afford some bread and milk before payday. worried about the heating bill.

So back to the beginning yes my political views have changed over time I now think Santa Claus has more chance of being real than the Bumbling Buffoons that call themselves politicians ever doing something for the people of this country unless it suits an agenda for themselves.

Oops don’t forget the latest one changes the law to suit himself and tries to stamp out freedom of speech.

From now on I vote Santa at least he gives and doesn’t take, take, take

Take care and speak soon

Just Perfect

You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?

Dear friend,

The very thought of building my own space for reading and writing has been in my head for as long as I can remember.

I always wanted a dedicated room for my books, my own library. Wall to wall book shelves with a desk sitting sideways into the room so I can look out of the window.

Actually I have upgraded my plans since I first made them to include a second desk back to back, one for pc and one for writing ✍🏽.

The room will be white with a plain carpet and will have a couple of bucket seats to finish the room.

That is my ideal quiet place to study and read,

Since I was a child I have dreamt of this, oh I have amassed a sizeable amount of books for my library on most topics. I have my desks and pc plus I am writing more.

All I need is the room and at last slowly and painfully I am putting a room together, my dream will become my reality

This is when I say dreams do come true, I am 58 it’s been a long time, but wow, wow and I say again wow this will be my favourite, most loved room in all my house.

My own library/reading/writing space/room. My place of quiet thoughts

Bye for now and take care

He. She. They. Them.

Who are the biggest influences in your life?

Hello my friend

Firstly I send from me to you Seasons Greetings and may the New Year bring you Peace, Hope & Security, in whatever form that may take.

Now the biggest influences in my life have been;

My wonderful step-dad
The twins at St Claire’s, and all of Enid Blytons books. She brought me through my childhood.
A wonderful lady who lived down a woodland track near Dads farm. She was the most amazing teacher of life, baking, gardening and nature.
Mitch Album, author of Five People you Meet in Heaven. That book changed my thinking .

Two people that were actually in my life and two authors, amazing when I stop to think of all the people that I have come in contact with in my 58 years and those are the only ones I can say have really influenced me.

I am lucky to have had My Dad he was the most amazing lovely kind man.

As for the lady in the wood she was a beautiful soul, who I could tell all my troubles to. As was the custom when I grew up, adults were always Mr & Mrs, this lady became known as Auntie Babs to me. I guess she adopted me into her life.

Looking at this I can see how blessed I have been

Take care

Oh What Fun

What was the last thing you did for play or fun?

Hello my friend

I was going to say the last thing I did for fun was sleep but that’s boring unless you could see my dreams.

So I have sat and thought hard about this well not that hard because being creative process to me is my fun and play in one. Like being a child again, this time no adult saying you can’t mix that or use this or a grumpy art teacher saying stop 🛑 I don’t like your work, I am free to do whatever

Be Creative with a smile on my face, I am so in love with art 🖼️ and creativity that I have a selection of paints next to me in my front room and if I suddenly feel an inspiration to paint, I have it all to hand.

Dreamland of another time.

A mix of acrylics, wooden reliefs, reindeer moss, mirrors, gems and twigs. Finished with some lights built in. Just imagination gone wild

This may be childish and not to people’s taste but I did it for fun and art should be fun, at least it’s not a banana stuck to a wall with some tape and sold for a fortune.

So this started me into my deep thinking and playful phase and my take on the tree of life and I had so much fun doing this .

The spreading family tree.

My version of the tree of life, as the fruit of the tree in this case acorns,(nuts) fall and spread they are still connected. Life goes on, but family ties are stronger than you realise.

I loved this one it’s proudly hung in my bedroom. I don’t paint for anyone as I have a huge downer on my achievements re other people seeing them but I gifted my son a small painting of a turtle-duck (he likes this Japanese Anime) at least it must resemble one because he knew straight away what it was and seemed happy. I usually love what I paint make create, maybe one day I will be able to show some pieces or not

After all I just enjoy the playing

Till next time ⭐️

The oh so little Turtleduck

I painted this for my son who is in his early 30’s a character from an anime cartoon he likes